Is it me or every time you start to feel a bit full of yourself you get nudged and knocked down or in my case I tend to take myself out! I got a bit cocky lately with how well my progression has been going with my MG and workouts and then life happens. I don’t mean my usual clumsy I just walked into a glass door or did she just fall down a flight of stairs again? I mean she just trip in slow motion took down the collapsible tent, grabbed the collapsible cooler handle, turned and grabbed the fold-able chair before finally hitting the ground moment. I have been too tired to get in workouts because I have been neglecting housework to get them in. I need a maid! I need more help but this does not seem to be possible.
Then I push the envelope cleaning and instead of doing it moderately and over time I do it all in one feel sweep because I am tired of seeing the mess. Then I end up with several days of moderate weakness. I cannot help it if feel like if I do not clean up the anxiety will mount up so greatly within me I will explode. My grandmother is the same way. I think it’s a way for us to relax as well feel busy sometimes. It helps us think and relief stress. It’s hard to explain. But I felt great immediately after it was done. It’s just the days that follow until I can rest and re-energize.
What’s more is that I am the worst for pushing even past that and pretending that nothing is wrong. So I still try to do normal things in the mean time like go to work full-time, hang with friends, do normal chores, and the like. This is not resting for a person with MG. In fact it can take me an additional week or so to recover after my cleaning stunts when I do this but I try not to let it get to me or hinder others yet sometimes it does. I have to be better about this! My confidence in my abilities is a bit misleading at times based on how I feel some days, where I want to be, and the GREAT reports I have been getting from the doctors lately but that glass wall has been hurting a bit. I should probably stop face planting into some often, LMBO.