Thankful

Last night I may not have gotten much sleep and I may be extremely tired this week and super run down due to all my appointments but I had a moment last night. I woke up and had to go to the bathroom in the night and came back and was in pain. I felt my left flank hurting and instantly thought OH NO! Please God not another kidney stone. I was like I know that the last 2 days I have been 2 busy. I have not been drinking water like I should be and I was so god since my last stone. I have been ON IT! I mean really on it! So I got up and instantly drank as much as I could which was only about 8-12 ounces before I felt sick to my stomach at 11:53p. I was praying to God to please not let me vomit. As an MGer If I start vomiting that repetitive muscle action can cause choking and that can go really bad really quickly. I was like I do not want to go to the hospital. I was like I have options. I have zofran in the other room if I need but I am going to sit here and breathe and get my anxiety UNDER CONTROL. I am going to BREATHE. I did not even let my mind go the the emergency suction machine in the house. I do not know why. I guess subconsciously I refuse to think I will need this at this point. I thought about pain management too but I said NO. BREATHE! Then suddenly about 15-20 minutes later it stopped. I started to tear up. I started thanking God instantly. I knew I had done what was right. I promised myself I would sip water every time I was up last night, through out the day today ask I could take it and as soon as I was off today I would go and buy my favorite sports drinks/ waters to help me re-hydrate. I have to wait until I get off to do this since I had to be up at 4a to be at work by 5:10a but when I get off at 1:30p it’s on. If the pain had not subsided instantly I would have known that I was too late and that it was a kidney stone again. I have been there and done that 3 times this year. They have no idea what was causing them, they just know it was not my medications thankfully as my medications are very critical to stabilizing my disorder. Funny enough Goldilocks slept through all of this last night and had no idea that I was going through any of this…if only I could sleep like this. This would probably eliminate half the issues I have had in my life, LMBO.