It was Fair

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Bells, whistles, ferris wheels, cotton candy, funnel cakes, and tons of walking. Yes its that time of year. When the weather turns a bit chilly and the state fair comes to town. I went today with Philly and had a ball. It was his first time going to the fair in North Carolina. He actually enjoyed it.

We went before it got to packed. Less people children and annoying sounds, I guess missing the point of the fair. Philly was like, wait so people pay $10 to come in and people watch and walk around and then pay more money to do everything in here? His face like we were all stupid

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And I was like no, there are free concerts, shows, galleries, meet and greets with local celebrities and regular celebrities (sometimes), and demonstrations. But yes, there are MANY things here that you have to pay for. His face then

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I only do amusement park rides because I dont trust rides that are thrown up in a few days and taken down just as quickly.

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So I’m one of those people that just goes for the food.

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But before you judge me

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Know that i only really eat like this once a year. I know you make be thinking yea right but hear me out. Fair foods only come once a year and the funny part is that i do not even get all things that are traditional fair foods. But i have to have these items each year at the fair and i have specific vendors I will only go to and get them.

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I must have an Italian sausage with peppers, a gourmet funnel cake (each year i get a different one but always at the same vendor- this year it was a turtle brownie funnel cake), and vanilla ice cream with rainbow flavor burst (gel piping around the curves). As usual the cone was bigger than my head!

Philly enjoyed the sounds and smells too. We even went to enjoy one of my favorite games beat the guesser. Where the person guesses your age, weight, or birth month. They have to be within 2 years of your age, 2 months for your birth month, and 3 lbs for your weight. I always do my weight because they are never anywhere  near it. The man looked did a complete assessment was spot on with everyone else that came near him and when I walked up was under by over 30lbs. It always happens. It makes me feel better for sure.

Philly was tempted to try his age but didn’t I think he should have. No one ever gets it right! I won a purple rabbit, only because there were no blue ones (I love blue and I love rabbits).

I saw this look on Philly’s face.

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He said so what (as a chef) people can charge whatever they want at these booths and no one questions that 2 booths down it’s the same thing? How do I get into this?

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Next year Philly has learned that the earlier the better. And he just may have a booth next year so be on the look out for him!

It was an awesome day.

 

The Liebster Award

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‘Ello Blogstars! I have received another Liebster award and I am so very thankful that Spoken Black Girl has award me this honor because it means she, like the rest of you Bloggies, are enjoying my moments however outrageous they may get at times. You must check out her blog for some high quality material. She tells powerful stories about her life and is an advocate for Mental Illness as well.

In fact, all of these blogs that I’m nominating are inspising and speak volumes about their lives in some respect. They keep me centered and motivated! So without further pomp, my nominees are:

Mugilan Raju from Prime my subconscious, one hint at a time –  The poems he writes are so original and transcendent with their vivid imagery that you will be transported through his words into the stories of each piece. You have to check him out!

Linda from Tales from the cabbage patch – I was definitely drawn to the name as it is one of my nicknames and it lives up to the hype for one of my monikers, lol. Linda has a comedic heir to her life stories that are so relateable and when I tell you her pictures add to the hilarity I cry real tears laughing at her posts. Definitely worth checking out!

Sunshine from Sunshine Rays on Life– I Sunshine’s blog because her poems are so simple and refreshing. They just wash over you like a wave and make your feel like you could have though of the same thing when you saw that object or moment in time and the poems just make me feel so HAPPY!

Megan from The Manic Years  is a fellow mental health advocate that you should keep on your watch list. Her unique mix of mental health advocacy and art is inspiring! She gives you her story as well as the stories of countless others letting you know that you are not alone and is honest about her everyday struggles letting you know that there is hope! I love it!

Deidra Alexander at Deidra Alexander’s Blog is an amazing fiction writer that poetically writes about her everyday life in such a way that you feel you are truly reading about the most spectacular adventure. I mean I really feel like I am in another world reading her blog. Please check it out. She’s one of the many talented writers that I follow.

I wish I could list all of the bloggers that I love. There are so many, please do not feel slighted if I missed you, believe me I can always send many awards around another time. 😉

Here’s the part when I answer some questions for your reading pleasure!

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Random Facts

  1. I am super competitive
  2. I have an additive personality
  3. I enjoy random facts and trivia
  4. I once got stuck under a wall under water for nearly 2 minutes and no one knew I was there because I would dig holes in the sand and swim through with friends when we were kids at a lake called silver lake and I almost drowned. I finally dug enough sand away to get out.
  5. I will try any activity at least once
  6. I have a strange quirk about touchy sticky things with my hands. It seriously freaks me out, it started in college when a 2-liter soda exploded in my dorm room and we found sticky areas everywhere for weeks.
  7. I organize my closet based on color (ROY G. BIV), season, and ‘dress’ (active wear, dressy, casual).
  8. I love cartoons and anime and watch them every chance I get
  9. I enjoy scary movies but if they are too scary I tend to have to watch cartoons after to ‘erase’ the scariness it caused, who needs those nightmares or feelings that someone is in your house
  10. Sometimes my anxiety is so strong I feel like I could crawl out of my skin and I have to find something to do with myself to distract my mind, like bust a move, sing, make a strange noise for no reason, or whatever my mind or body compels me to do at the time (I know, sounds a bit ADHD, but don’t think I am, least I have not been diagnosed as such).
  11. I enjoy planning and organization and if I had the money I would do this professionally not just with trips and homes but also with my industrial and organizational degree for HR.

Now for my questions!

  1. What’s your favorite thing about blogging? My favorite thing about blogging is talking to people across the entire world and knowing the people who tune in just like on television, chose to hear me. Each time I see a place across the map light up, especially one not in my own country I secretly get all giddy and do an dance in my head that resembles the one I did outwardly that was not so smooth (though I am a pretty good dancer. Those spur of the moment silly dances don’t always come off that smooth).

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  1. Do you enjoy any other forms of artistic expression outside of your blog? Yes, I paint, crotchet, play instruments now more on my technical devices than my clarinet and keyboards, sing, write, and I would love to pick up dance again.
  2. What was your favorite book as a kid? I love you forever
  3. Have you lived in multiple neighborhoods, states or countries? Which shaped you the most? Do tell! I currently in above a complex of art Galleries in an art district which is truly expanding my artistic views and I love it. It is reestablishing my art basics and now I am fully back into and just truly appreciating it all.
  4. What’s your number one guilty pleasure food? POTATOES, I am like the bubba gump of potatoes people! I can eat/ cook them just about any way, fried, scalloped, boiled, baked, broiled, mashed, whipped, julienne, sliced, diced, I’ll eat cheese potatoes, garlic, in a boat, on a moat, I Love potatoes the MOST!
  5. What’s your spirit animal? I would have to say a fish and in specific I love the Koi fish. I have always loved water and I at one point in my life I was certified I was certified with just about everything dealing with water, lifeguard, scuba diving, swim coach, swim instructor, and so on. I just love water. It keeps me at peace. I can sit and listen to the waves lapping all day long. Storms and water just calm me.
  6. Okay, if you could time travel. When, where?! If I could time travel I would travel to 1999 to when my brother was 13. I would give him some critical advice and love that he would need to help veer his life in the right direction hopefully before it got too out of hand to the point it is at now.
  7. What’s one thing about you that your readers would never guess? I am made of up the most random things ever so many people say all the time you JUST NEVER KNOW WITH CHRIS so this one was fairly easy. Picking ONE was the hard part. Each year, I must watch the Discovery Channel’s Shark Week shows. I DVR them or watch them live but I must see them. I know all the episodes and which ones are from previous years to catch you up to the current year when they show snippets and my husband just sort of looks at me in amazement but he doesn’t say anything.
  8. What is one current issue that really moves you? Well all my readers know mental health is really important to me but another issue is children’s advocacy and hunger. I cannot stand by and watch a child go without for any reason not just because it is wrong but because I was once that child.
  9. Where do you go / what do you do when you want to feel completely relaxed? I go to a spa and get a massage and/or a place near water and just listen to water.
  10. If you could help one thing from the 90s make a comeback…So many things from the 90s are already making a comeback so that is hard, but if I had to pick one thing it would have to be it’s a tie between Planter’s cheese balls and Fruitopia. When I was younger you could always catch me with a baggie of cheese balls because my parents would buy me the cardboard and metal or the HUGE clear container that was bigger than your head and I would walk around eating them. I even took them with me on my first trip to New Jersey and spilled them while helping my cousin move into his new apartment on his new carpet, LOL. I felt like a boob because I was like 15 trying to be cool and everyone made me feel so bad for it. It was an accident and I was trying to clean it…It didn’t stain it. They did get free labor out of me geesh! With that said maybe I will pick the Fruitopia, it never got me in trouble, LOL.

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Now some instructions for my nominees:

  • Thank the person who nominated you, and link back to them.
  • List these rules somewhere in your post.
  • Name your favorite blog that is not your own with a short description.
  • Answer the questions given to you by the person who nominated you.
  • Nominate 5-11 bloggers for this lovely award, who have fewer than 200 subscribers.
  • List 11 Random Facts about yourself.
  • List 11 questions for your nominees to answer on their posts!
  • Let your nominees know you nominated them!

My questions for you to answer:

  1. Where would you go if you could go anywhere?
  2. Do you have any phobias?
  3. What was the last thing that really made you laugh?
  4. What is the weirdest thing you have ever done?
  5. What is the most adventurous thing you have ever done?
  6. Are you an introvert or an Extrovert?
  7. What was the last book you read?
  8. If you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?
  9. If you could spend an endless amount of money on any one thing, who/what would it be?
  10. What is your one guilty pleasure?
  11. If you could have one super power what would it be and why?

Where has the time gone!

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I cannot believe it has been a week since I have blogged! This is so unlike me. I mean it is like me going a day without talking! It just so rarely happens you would think that I am sick. The reality is that I have been so busy that I have hardly had time to wrap my head around all the strange feelings and activities that I have been undergoing.

Let’s first talk about these activities. I have been visiting friends and family like it is going out of style in an effort to seemingly catch up on all the years I have missed from being away in college or busy with my masters for so many years. I also am trying to catch up from being ill and unable to visit and hang with people as my reason was I was in the hospital or to weak to actually be away from home or treatment more than about 1-2 hours if that.

Now that I can I have been booked or booking so much time with family and friends that I have turned ‘fun’ into another job form myself and have to slow down a bit. I feel like my bed and I need a real come to Jesus moment where we talk about some secret things that no one else understands. I mean it seems like it has been awhile since I have held the sandman hostage; which is a requirement when you have work shift disorder for over 15 years.

I have been kayaking, hanging in arcades (Dave and Busters), out drinking, playing pool, at food truck rodeos, and so much more. It has been fun but I have to make sure I don’t overdo things by spreading myself too thin in the name of fun.

Now for the crazy feelings, well I assume they are a mix of stress and just a bevy of emotion that keeps flooding me thinking about my future and reflecting on my past with MG. I mean to think I am almost at 15 weeks with no treatment is amazing and the longest I have gone ever. Then to think that when I first started with MG that I could barely hold or balance things in one hand and now I can hold them with a finger or two and I am almost back to my old strength even if not my old endurance yet as I have to build that back up. I also think about the fact that no matter where my husband and I are now in our relationship he was very supportive of me through some rough times that most people did not see or even know about. He may joke with me about it now but he was there and helped me get through it when I could only had him and my mom to share those really personal things with. I was even too embarrassed to tell my best friends back then. I am so happy for the stability and the success that has occurred in my life. I thank God daily and several times a day for all that is occurring in my life. People need to know that I may not be the most religious person but I am spiritual, grateful, and I love God even though I do not blog about Him all the time. I’m not here to sell you my God! He is yours if you want him and I feel if you like what I have and what I do you will seek him the same as I did because you see him working in my life as I saw him working in the lives of those who were happy around me!

Sometimes I even feel sad because I feel as though I am still not where I want to be, but I realize that I will get there in due time. I am progressing and that is all that matters. I know that I have put on weight again but I am healthy and stable and now since I can workout again I can get that weight back off. So that makes me happy and working out lately has been a great joy. My WOD (workout of the day) is going to be awesome today! I can’t hardly wait to get home and conquer it, who knows I may even let my husband do the workout with me if he doesn’t get in the way. I’m kind of selfish with my workouts, LMBO. I like to workout on my own then I will teach people whatever, they want on their own time (since he doesn’t already know the moves).

 

 

Goals Goals Goals- So Excited

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I am so excited today! I won’t say everything is going my way but I will say that today is definitely an amazing day! I’m reaching goals and working toward new goals everyday.Moreover, as I reach old goals I make new ones and push toward those. Right now I just hit 12 weeks without plasma exchange treatment for myasthenia gravis again and that is my second time doing that but this time I do not feel like last time. I do not feel like I need treatment right now. Last time at this point I wanted treatment 2 weeks before this but I was just hanging on. Right now I feel like I can go another 2-4 weeks no problem. So I will. If I feel like I can go further I will, but make no mistake, I will not sacrifice NUMBERS for my health.

My next goal was to get in more exercise and I am doing this daily. I started walking more, bought a spin bike, and a fit bit. I am all over this challenge. I even started tracking my food again. Not really eating as a DIET because I still eat what I want just making sure that I do not put more in than I expend and that I get enough for what I am doing. You have to eat calories to burn them. I tend to be in starvation mode quite often, especially because I skip breakfast A LOT.

My final goals are making sure that I continue to keep my bucket list STRONG! I am still working on checking things off that list. I have travel dates set for going to Europe and I am almost to my 50 book reading goal for the year and I will be checking off a few more things as well. I am totally psyched!

Annual Bucket List: 2016

Do a local bike race- spin bike is getting me ready
get yoga mat/basic training
Visit wizarding world of Harry Potter- I will do this in London
Read 50 books — at 43 books almost done but I won’t stop there
Buy a Go Pro
Go Sky Diving
Go to a State I have not been to before
Go to 5th Cirque Du Soliel Performance- have to go out of state thanks to HB2 chaos
Paint Pottery
Throw Pottery (as in make my on pottery)
Decorate my house for fall
Decorate my house for Christmas
Take a romantic trip with my husband
Volunteer with a charity monthly
Take a culinary class
Go swimming (you would be amazed that since being diagnosed with MG I have not swam once because I have started to have fear that it would become over exterted and not be able to get out of the water….says the former lifeguard and scuba certified person)
Be sling shot (it a weird bungee course thing that looks like a giant sling shot)
Go to Canada


Master Bucket List

Write a book- In the process
Have a baby/ adopt a child
Create a Charity
Run a business
Travel overseas like a nomad (England, France, Italy, etc)- Scheduled for Sept.2016
Go to Disneyland
Go to a bioluminscent bay
Have my music music produced and perform it
Help Find a Cure for MG
Go to Alaska- see the Northern Lights
Pose for a sexy calendar

Writing is FUNdamental

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Have you ever began a project and known it was gold but still had a plan A, B, or even C cooked up just in case something went awry? I’m not saying that could be the case with the book I am writing now but as it is developing more and more I keep waking up with more and more ideas for other books and some not related to the series I am currently working on.

It’s exciting and nerve racking all at once because I want to retain my faith and confidence in this book but I also want to possibly begin on something else just in case when I go to submit something to a publishing company/editor and they look at it, IF they have that moment where they say weeeeell do you have anything else at the moment this may not be the market for it. I mean I do understand that sometimes you have to push for it anyway but I also understand that you have to trust them to know and there is a fine line.

It all depends on how you feel once it’s done! Right now I wonder if I should create more than one at a time. I do not do it intentionally, more as a side note. As a few words come to me I go and type them in and leave it at that and go back to my main work. I wonder if this is normal. It doesn’t take long keeps me intrigued and keeps my element of fun in it. Any suggestions or thoughts out there?

What Famous Writer Are You?

MARK TWAIN

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Always paying attention to the nuances of those around you, your writing is probably less focused on the abstract and more tuned in to what goes on in your everyday life.  You are probably a gifted storyteller who keeps nearly everyone entertained with your wit and observation skills.  Making money is not as important to you, as your greatest reward is simply the joy of others enjoying what you’ve written.

This was a fun personality quiz that I did from one of my Follower’s/ Reader’s pages and I enjoyed it greatly. I found it pretty accurate, give it a try!

See what famous writer you are? 

Writing laterally-Help!

SO last week I hit a writing hurdle. I struggle with dialogue. I can describe a scene in great detail like you would tell an actor or give them direction (almost like a screen play perhaps) but I am not great with creating dialogue. I know how it should go but when I have to actually write it I become to repetitive and lose vocabulary creativeness and feel muted and frustrated. I hate constantly saying he said, she said, I said, They said. etc. I see why there are more modern books that write a whole chapter from the point of view of one character, then the next chapter is from the other/ another character’s POV. It’s easier to be a bit more creative.

So when I hit this wall it made me feel a bit more unexcited about how to make my book flow naturally and I began doing more research which I must do anyway instead of keeping the true creative part and writing chunks of my book. I have begun a lateral process instead of moving forward.

Moreover, I have struggled with telling my reader the story 99% of the time instead of showing them the story. Once again it’s like you want to put people in the scene with you and not assume everyone around you knows what is going on without giving so much detail that you are boring them. You still have to leave ‘white space’ or gaps for them to feel as if there is something left for the imagination to do some work and interpret on their own. You do not want to spoon feed them that YOUR creativity in that line. This should not be hard for me as I have never had an issue with this in my poetry or blogs, but in my book I am struggling because I feel added pressure.

Is this natural? Should I have the same feeling that I have when I write poetry and blogs to accomplish the book? I get that I should write prompts and practice dialogues and scenes and such more often even if not daily but are my feelings valid? I am getting quite anxious which is anything but what I wanted to feel writing this book, it was fun and now it’s kinda not as fun.

Moving at Light Speed…

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There are times I swear I should probably sit down and take a breather, but I feel like as soon as I do, I would pass out and never wake up. I’m totally not with the whole comatose lifestyle. I sometimes feel like you can rest when you die moments. I would rather get it all done when I am able because I know that as soon as I sit some days, it truly is over. I sit down or lay down and I honestly cannot get back up. It takes so much effort tears involuntarily come to my eyes and I suck them back up trying to figure out where they came from. You get back in there now!

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It’s just not allowed! Then I find a way to treat/ reward myself for my hard work sometimes. I have had to remember to start doing that becasue I work hard and forgetting to do this is just WRONG! I know I have a bog trip planned later in the year but not having down time and little rewards along the way greatly pain me throughout this journey.

SO I do things like give myself a day of reading, buy a sewing machine (which I recently did) and enjoy movies. I personally bought the sewing machine for several reasons, to give my hands a break from fixing my work pants all the time as they rip at the seams and my poor fingers get so tired that I struggle to type for the rest of the day sometimes longer. Then I want to go back to creating projects and such like I use to do, pillows, blankets, and other little things. I get to experiment a bit too because I have never had a sewing machine and so I get to buy fabric and play with patterns and it has a few luxuries like a foot pedal and everything for a portable little sewing machine. I’m pretty excited. It was what I bought for myself from some of the bday money my brother and sis n’ law gave me.

I also hang with my friends. This is my biggest reward. I know that is still a constant way to be out and about instead of just sitting still but it gives me great pleasure to hang with them, talk, and hear about someone else’s achievements, issues, and so on.  I have to get out of my own head and world sometimes. Sometimes moving at the speed of light is the only way that works for me! I will crash later!

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Excitement…Where is it?

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I have lost my excitement and I do not know where it has gone. I usually can look at my bucket list and be renewed, art supplies, or new books…but that has not helped lately. I need a swift kick in the pants. I need a change of environment as well as a some serious R&R. I need a therapeutic escape with no thought to bills, work, housework/ chores, or the doctor’s appointment.

I just need to be in peace. It does not take much for me. It could be a simple beach trip, meditation trip, or spa trip. I do not require much. I just know that a few days away with a friend or 2 would do me some good! I need this in my life right now. Heck I may not even go with a friend. I may just go by myself and skype and call friends while on the trip and just be by myself. Sometimes you just need to go and coordinating time with others can be too hard and stressful within itself. I do not need to try and go out everywhere and plan dinners, lunches, and adventures, just go with the flow, and rest. I owe this to myself and sometimes going with friends can make this difficult because the need different things and I do not want to slow them down or stop them when they may need the ADVENTURE right now. I just want to relax. Maybe go to a pottery class or do something very low key and fun.

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If they are on the same agenda, then float on with me, if not, there will definitely be other times and other trips. This is not a husband and wife trip, lol. This is a self-discovery and relaxation trip. An all by myself or girls only trip. I need to find my sense of wonder and excitement and men make you WANDER and worry sometimes because they tend to become a bit disorienting with their, where is my?…did you see my? are we going to? Is this the? What are we going to do? What’s next? When? I’m Hungry! LOL Nope, I plan on catering to myself only on this trip! I’ll be leaving him at home to fend for himself. Hopefully it won’t become the total dark ages in the time I’m gone.

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