The Almost Cure: Nervous Excitement

So I got my results back from my single fiber EMG. Remember this is the test for MG patients that they put the needle in the muscle belly of the arms and forehead and give little electrical shocks to see how the muscle recovers essentially. Well Yes, it was just as I remembered. It hurt like all get out. I was not a happy camper but it was a necessary evil. Though I was given the option to tell the conductor to stop at any time I ignored that option as I wanted desperately to endure it so that he could get all the information he could. I figured if I did not tell him to stop over 2.5 years ago when I was in crisis mode I dang sure could deal with it now when I was much stronger. But when he lit up my forehead where there is not much muscle I swear I wanted to scream stop many times. I may be strong but I am not superwoman…I am not impervious to pain.

Anyways,

I get to the hospital after a 25 min trip took an hour. I go to check-in and they say my appointment is not at the hospital but at his clinic and I’m confused. I thought the place was one in the same. They politiely give me the address and say it is not far from there and it was only about 7 minutes away but in traffic took me 15. I called ahead and told them I was running late and that I had only EVER met this specialist at the hospital and had no idea he had a clinical office at another location and they understood and said they would wait as long as I got there before his 9am client. So I sped like a bat out of HELL. I got there at 8:35 and by the time they called me back and started my vitals I heard the call in his 9 am. So I figured I was good. NOT. They kept doing small tasks and having nurses come in and talk to me and some associate from a the muscle dystrophy association talk to me then another doctor but that all happened in the first hour. I then waited 2.5 more hours before I saw MY doctor. I was pretty annoyed by this time. I mean if it weren;t for the fact there are only 2 other specialists like him in the country and they are few and far between and I waited 9 months for this appointment, I would have left.

But I did not show any of this once he walked in, ONLY relief that he gave me his full time and effort, I am no fool. I need answers and his knowledge and I cannot afford to be ignorant something that is life changing for me.

The Results are in:

My arms have gotten considerably stronger in the last 2.5 years, but my forehead and eye areas weaker which from what I had already told him were consistent. Moreover, my hip flexors are strong but have gotten a bit weak but that was from a simple test from week to week not the single fiber test. I also have developed strider again (a respiratory issue). But what that means for me in terms of someone who wants to be more fit and has gained weight, wants to have a child, and wants to come off some if not all of my medications.

Right now he says the tests says my MG is too active. To have a child would mean potential death for me as well as if they took me off my medications right now. I am just not strong enough for any of that. I cannot go back to ‘normal’ yet. But he created 2 plans to help get me better so that I can have a child and be strong and come off the medications.

  1. First is to increase my cell cept from 1000 mg daily to 2000 because apparently for nearly 3 years I have been on a puny dose and it’s not enough.
  2. Then is to get a subcutaneous port. This is so I can receive my PLEX (plasma exchange treatments) easier because I will need to be plexed extensively over a 2 week period before getting step 3.
  3. Thymectomy- I will get worse before getting better for about 2-4 months (a bit weaker but I will be able to receive plex during this time as well)
  4. During all this time I will begin rituximab which will begin to replace cell cept and it is a med I can take even if/ when I get pregnant. But I need to be off cell cept 3-6 months before I am allowed to be pregnant.
  5. Get pregnant

The other process the doctor laid out had me doing the same process except based on my answers of wanting a child I would get pregnant first and then do the thymectomy further down the road (flipping steps 3 & 5 Basically. I said no prefer to do plan ‘a’ as he called it because it allows me a chance to be stronger first and to hold and care for my baby with less trouble.

 

I also learned something more about MG and pregnancy I never knew…If you have been pregnant before, even if you did not carry to term you are more likely to have more weakness and crisis at some point during the pregnancy and likely post-partum than first time pregnant women.

There is also the rule of thirds with pregnancy:

1/3 will have no change in symptoms/ weakness

1/3 will have increases symptoms/ weakness

1/3 will have decreased symptoms/ weakness

 

With the thymectomy I help cut this down greatly! So right now I definitely see no reason not to do this besides just being nervous about surgeries in general, and surgery from the standpoint of anesthesia and MG patients. I am definitely excited to have less symptoms that’s for sure and to be able to get treatments that are quicker and less painful. I am all for it. I can see why God has post-poned some things for me now. He had a plan that involved some serious flexibility not every place offers that or understands.

Every Little Victory

I celebrate every little victory even if it is only me and in my own little space. For example I may have done everything on my to-do list and felt very accomplished and I may sit and read a book after doing a small happy dance and singing and laughing. Yea that sounds a bit hysterical but my to-do list are pretty intense most of the time. similar to this below for personal to-do lists on a nice week, LOL.

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My most recent victory is that I was told that for my single fiber EMG test I do not have to stop taking one of medications ahead of time that tends to cause complications for my PLEX treatment. I’m on a high level of aspirin because I have a lupus anti-coagulant. What this means is that I do not have lupus but I do have really thick blood. So to help thin it I drink TONS of water take 325mg of aspirin a day. For the test they say I have to stop blood thinners but this apparently does not include aspirin, even at this this dosage.

Originally I had pushed my treatment to Thursday just to give my aspirin time to kick back in before going to get PLEX so I would have less issues during treatment (clotting) and we would not be there for 4-7 hours and more like 3. Now with this news I can go the same day as the test which is great since the test renders me dang near immobile and unable to swallow. I even feared I would not make it to treatment on Thursday after the test but I didn’t want to voice it because I was just going to pray. So this morning I just called to be sure about the aspirin before confirming treatment times again with my local neurologist before going to work this morning and Oh FRABJOUS DAY! CALLOOH! CALLAY!

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I was so happy I skipped out of the house without my phone and welp there you have it! I tend to celebrate all my small victories all the time and my husband even looks at me a little weird sometimes but he will get over it. This is what I do because I enjoy giving praises to God for it and just being happy in general, I can’t be a gloomy pants person! Hope this brightens you day even a little! Futterwack with me! LOL!

 

 

Testing of all sorts

I am coming up on a much needed single fiber EMG which makes me so nervous I could vomit but I shall try to contain myself. A single fiber EMG may not sound that bad but believe me when I tell you how bad it was for me you…

So a single fiber EMG evaluates how well the nerve and muscle communicate.  It involves insertion of a recording needle electrode into the area of the nerve-muscle communication point (the neuromuscular junction). There may be some discomfort with insertion of the electrodes (similar to an intramuscular injection, or a shot that goes right into the muscle). A single fiber EMG is often done on an eye, forehead, or forearm muscle. CITED- http://www.netwellness.org/healthtopics/gravis/box2.cfm

Ok maybe it doesn’t sound like it’s not that bad! Because I have had it done twice and when I say a needle in your forearm, forehead, and in your neck is not fun- what I mean to say is IT HURTS LIKE HELL AND DON’T LET THEM TELL YOU OTHERWISE. My Expert’s exact works were (when he had to put it my forehead and I was already drained from everywhere else he had gone and tired was, ‘this part is going to be a bit ouchy’ I am sure that is NOT a professional term and if he is using ouchy that at this point I should just shoot myself!

I take friggin 15 & 16 gauge needles with no anesthesia in both arms (and this was often and he was pricking me in my forehead near and I just did not want to see that durn needle coming! Was that too much to ask! Apparently it was. And in a teaching hospital, nothing happens fast, so having an EXPERT in a teaching hospital means they put him in a basement where he can write amazing books and publications and do studies but it means that everyone else around him may well be incompetent.

So just after my test (as I was already at my weakest being admitted to the hospital in the first place) they tried to give me my meds after taking them away for 2 days and guess what I could not swallow and choked on my water and was sent to the ICU and vomited and choked on that and the students just stared. One even had the nerve to ask me what I was doing as I was just strong enough to put my head over the rail and not lay back and drown in my vomit in my almost flat bed. Finally, though I had been holding it down like a crazy person for several minutes, the person on the other end of my call bell stopped being lazy and realized it was a real emergency in the ICU (go figure) and stop asking what I needed. She realized what state I was in and went into action.

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I was in full panic mode by this time. I was absolutely terrified because I could not breathe through the vomit and they were trying to grab the suction for me and I snatched it and suction myself and felt better immediately. I just needed them to turn it on, lol. Then I was so weak afterwards I almost passed out. They put oxygen on me, a forced oxygen kit because I was no longer breathing well on my own…wonder why!?! When my family came in and saw that they went ballistic.

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So needless to say I am very anxious about this test. This time I have warned my parents that I am not admitted just outpatient and if they are not allowed to go back with me that I will not take meds until they are with me and we will drive back across town to my preferred hospital as their hospital lost that right just over 2.5 years ago. You don’t get to almost kill me again, LOL. That tested me in ways I didn’t not expect! But I am definitely stronger because of it. I know I can do it, even if I do not want to do it again, it is better to conquer it, educate myself on my progress, and move on.