Day 10 of the #loveme challenge…Share a secret

Today I am suppose to share a secret…I have 2 instincts on this. I want to say I am an open book and if you ask I will tell you if I have not already. Then my second is if I tell you, then it’s not a secret anymore, LOL. I have come to learn that I do not really have any secrets just ones that certain people do not know. For example, many people may know one aspect about me but some others may not. So in actuality its not a secret, just little know information, or not public information. SO I guess I may impart some of that little known information with you all. I was raped at 18 by a gang of guys in a fraternity while with a person I considered a friend and trusted for years. She disappeared to a private place at the party with her guy/date and as the party wound down I she was my ride and I was away from home on spring break with her nearly 100 miles from home. Everyone left except 4 guys. I was pretty nervous and scared! I refused to play along and scream whatever stupid frat saying they told me to and they thought it was brave “a soldier” they kept saying. They tried to break me. One guy refused to do anything and and told them to stop and finally saved me and took me to his room in the house and locked the door! He wouldn’t let anyone in the room til the next morning kicking everyone else out the house. I actually wanted to see him again for the rest of the weekend. He was a breath of fresh air as I was still stuck with the ‘trusted friend’ who had no idea what had happened and to this day thinks that all that was fun for me that night! I felt abandoned and hurt! I felt like I owed the man my life. He and I talked all night. He had my number and we talked for few days after that. But eventually we lost contact which was for the better because I needed to find myself and that took a long time for me to do! Unfortunately, looking back this set in motion a crazy summer for me that I could never have foreseen!!! But my ex-fiancee did even without knowing these details. I have forgiven her through prayer but I have actually not had any dealing with her in years because the opportunity has not come about.